It is truly amazing to me the calm I have felt the last few weeks since trying to get into the DOC and blogging. I have read through the blogs of 15 or 20 different parents, mom’s and individuals with Type 1 diabetes in their lives. I first started reading Six Until Me a few months after Ellie was diagnosed. I was immediately addicted to not only her awesome talent for writing but her voice as a woman with Type 1. A woman like my little girl will be someday. Kerri gives the gift of hope…that is a huge gift to a mother who has just been told her daughter of 3 tender years will live the rest of her life with this disease. Four short months after Ellie was diagnosed she was celebrating her 4th birthday with a Dora cupcake and a huge smile. This was done with confidence, this whole ordeal has been a hot bed for insecurity and by God we are getting more and more confident everyday. That is a source of pride for the whole family, but damn if that beast doesn’t shake your confidence in a blink of an eye. Having access to the DOC gives hope on a regular basis, at will, and when in need. That my D-parent peers IS AMAZING!
I think of my mother-in-law 36 years ago. Her daughter (my husbands oldest sister) was diagnosed at the age of 6 in Oketo, KS. She had the urine sticks and the meal plan…that’s it. That’s it!? No endocrinologist, no meter, no fast acting insulin…no DOC to refer to or share with. She sees me with Ellie now. The meters, pumps, CGM and constant access to information and help. It blows her mind I think. I have been married for 7 years as of last Monday and I have to say when Ellie was diagnosed…I became instantly closer to my sister-in-law, who by the way was and still is my ‘in person’ D rock. She not only endured my panic and fear in the form of constant calls for the first 2-3 months of Ellie’s diagnosis, she was and still is my go to when I need that look of “it is ok, you are doing a good job”. I have actually said to her that I was soooo glad she had Type 1 diabetes, no matter how horrible of a statement that is!
Without Envy was the first blog written by a parent that I found (through Six Until Me of course). I devoured it. Finally reading words from a man who knew and could express what I as well as my husband and family had been experiencing on a daily basis. From Without Envy I found all the D-Mom’s and their blogs…instantly I knew I had to try to blog and communicate…participate in this blog thing! Having participated now, feeling the energy and connection…relaxed me a bit, still tired foggy during the day like always. But not near as angry, not near as fearful and not near as alone as I’ve felt for 9 long months.
Thanks everyone. (yes…crying right now)
P.S. On a lighter note…I promise to figure out how this damn blog page, decorating, tagging, pictures on your site thing works!!! You all have beautiful sites (and children by the way!). I just have NO IDEA WHAT THE HECK I’M DOING!!! I just purchased my first ever laptop and have internet for the first time in 5 years at home!!! HA HA! I feel awful that I don’t know how to add the blogs I like on the page for clickin’ on and the picture at the top of my page IS NOT my back yard! Don’t even know who the person is in the picture walking! LOL I’ll get there, I know people who can set me up! Soooooo, coming soon to the DOC…a nice looking blog page about my Ellie Lee and the D.